MY OWN POEMS: COMPOSED BY ME

 Ang hirap manimbang sa mga dagok sa buhay at sitwasyon. Minsan gusto na tapusin at umiwas para tapos na Para makaahon na sa pagkalunod sa tubig na para ito sumisikip sa dibdib. Puro pagsubok, sakripisyo nararanasan dami pighati sakuna, gulo na walang hanggan. Hindi alam hanggang kailan mararanasan. Marahil matinding pagsubok lang ito na kailangan lagpasan. Para bang dumadaan sa butas ng karayom nararanasan sa panahon, at pagkakataon Para bang pinaparusahan sa maling desisyon ng pagkakataon. Minsan gusto na sumuko para hindi na pagdaanan pa ito unos sa buhay. Masakit sa akin pero kailangan pagdaanan upang makaahon at malagpasan ito. Tanging pinagdadasal na lang na matapos na ito. Maging agos ng tubig na lang ang mga pangyayari upang makagaan sa buhay. Mapaunos sa buhay, mapasakripisyo lilipas din ito at makakabangon din sa huli. Sanay malimutan ang sakit, pighati napagdaanan ko. Para wala na sakit maramdaman sa mga problema at pagsubok na tatahakin ko. Tadhana lang makakapagsabi ku...

Hindi ko alam kung normal na lang ba na kailangan mo masanay sa ugali. O dahil sa matagal na kayo kaya parang pakiramdam mo nababawasan ang pagsuyo at pagpansin sa namamaling gawain. Minsan hindi ko maintindihan ko bakit kailangan maging ganun ang nadarama at sitwasyon o sadyang sensitibo ang nadarama. Mahirap magpigil o manahimik sa sulok tuwing ganito ang sitwasyon. kailangan na lang ba baliwalain o sabihin ang pighati sa puso. Minsan mahirap tanggapin na ganito pakiramdam ko. Kung bakit kailangan humantong sa ganito. Maraming  katanungan sa puso ko. Minsan mas mabuti na manahimik at itulog na lang kaysa  magsalita at wala naman matino sasabihin. Pero sa totoo lang mapapagod ka din intindihin pagiging makasarili.

Alam ko mga bagay panandalian lang Panandalian lang ang saya, lungkot, kahidwatian. Madami unos ang sasapitin upang tayo'y matuto sa pagkakamali  sa buhay. Lahat ng bagay may hangganan. Panahon lang ang makakapagsabi nito  Nang dahil sa mga pagkakataon na sadyang mahirap ipilit  kahit gustuhin man natin. Sadyang mapaglaro ang tadhana. Pasasayahin ka muna nito'y ng panandalian Tapos ipapakita, at ipapadama sayo na mali Mali ang ating nagagawa dahil komplikado Pero dapat hindi natin tinitignan at naaalala  Mga bagay na nagpapaalala sa atin sa nakaraan. Dahil mahihirapan tayo umusad sa buhay kapag naaalala pa natin ito. Mahihirapan tayo sa una pero makakasanayan din natin ito sa huli. Lahat ng bagay may hangganan at panandalian lamang. Kaya bigyan ng halaga bawat oras, bawat minuto, at  bawat segundo na magkasama kayo. Nang sa ganun wala tayo pagsisisi sa huli. Importante naging masaya tayo kahit...

Kahit pala alam mo sa sarili mo na siya ang nakatadhana sayo Mahirap din pala makalipas mahirap din pala maging maayos ang lahat yung tipong baguhin ang nakasanayan mo ng gawin. Wala naman taong perpekto lahat tayo nagkakamali din. Kahit minsan nakakainis na kailangan mo pa din intindihin ang taong mahal mo. Nakakapagod din pala lalo na pag paulit ulit pero tinitiis mo lang kasi mahal mo siya Alam ko mali mapagod pero ayoko din puro ganun ang lagi nangyayari hinahayaan ko na nga lang Minsan sa buhay kailangan sumunod sa agos ng buhay dahil kung hindi mahuhuli ka at hindi ka  na makakabalik sa kinalalagyan mo pag nagpahuli ka. Dapat mo malaman mahirap ang buhay pero sadyang ganyan lang talaga ito. Kailangan mo sumabay at kahit mahal na mahal mo ito kailangan mo tanggapin

Bakit ganun ang damot ng tadhana sa akin? Kahit kailan hindi ako naging masaya sa pagmamahal. Hindi maibigay sa akin ng tadhana ang kaligayahan. Masama ba ko na tao? Bakit pinagdadamot sa akin ang magmahal na wagas? hindi ba ko karapat-dapat na tao para mabigyan ng wagas na pagmamahal? San ba ko nagkulang? San ba ko nagkamali? Malas ba talaga ako pagdating sa pagmamahal? Wala ba talagang karapat dapat ang puso ko sumaya? sadya ba talaga ganun ang tadhana sa akin? Bakit hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin makita ang para sa akin? Na magmamahal ng tapat sa akin. Naiingit ako sa ibang girls na nakilala ko. Sila masaya na lovelife nakuha na niya lahat ako hindi pa  hanggang ngayon.

Kahit gustuhin ko man na sobra kang mahalin hindi pwede dahil may nagmamay-ari na sayo. Kahit gustuhin ko man na maangkin ka hindi pwede dahil may masasaktan tayo. Kahit gustuhin ko man na lagi ka makasama hindi pwede dahil may naghihintay sayo. Kung alam mo lang kung gaano kita kamahal sobra sobra kita minamahal Pero hindi kita pwedeng mahalin dito sa lupa kaya sa langit  na lang kita mamahalin sa langit na lang tayo magmahalan.

Salamat dahil lagi mo ko pinapasaya Lagi ka nandyan sa tabi ko Lagi mo ko pinapatawa Salamat dahil ikaw ang naging boyfriend ko Kaw lang  nagtiyaga na nakilala ko. Salamat sa lahat sa mga oras mo Sa pagtitiyaga mo Kaw pa lang ang lalaki na nagpakahirap para puntahan ako para sobrang pasayahin ako. Salamat sa mga ginawa mo para sa akin  sa mga tulong mo sa akin mahal na mahal kita ayoko mawala ka sa buhay ko. Maraming salamat dahil natagpuan kita.

I don't want to lose you in my life for me you're the one that I choose to be mine. I'm afraid if someday  I'll gonna lose you. One day I wake up you are not already mine. You're already with someone else I don't want that to happen because I don't want to lose you in my life. I'm serious to you when the time that you're already mine I'm so glad I will not make you feel sad and jealous because I love you and for me you're so special that's why I don't want to lose you in my life. You know what I don't want to hurt you. So I'm doing my best to prove to you that I'm serious I will not do bad things I will prove to you that you are  the only one I love. You wanna know why? Because I don't want to lose you in my life.

I will always love you I will always here for you I will always need you and I will always care for you I will always love you I will never give up on you Cause I can never find someone like you I will always love you I will never tired to say that word to you and I will never get tired of you Because I love you and not just I love you that I will say to you but I will always love you.

I am so happy that you're my boyfriend You're one of a kind  I am so proud of you. I am so happy that I found you thank you for waiting You are so special to me. I am so happy that I choose you. Thank you for everything. I am so happy that you're here to my life.

I believe that we all want to be tough To be one of a kind Because we want to prove to others that were good were great, were alive We all have a gift from God All of us want to shake. All the gift we want. We can prove what we want to prove. Be strong, be mindful Just be what we are Be tough, believe in God not to ourselves. Just continue believing  Don't stop dreaming to yourself. Cause that dream will pursue us to be commit All of our dreams. Don't upset whenever Our dream didn't come true Cause God still love us. No matter what happen despite all the difficulties that were facing of. Pray for yourself Pray for others Especially our love ones. Be stiff, be alert in every situation that we encounters Love yourself, Love your family and love God. 

Some of our friends stay Stay for good Stay with us, some won't. No matter what happen they are with us. For the good times and for the bad times. Some of our friends choose to go and forget the times that you are together. The happiest moments. Some of our friends won't cherish the times that you are  there with them. It's because you are no longer important to them. That's why I called it come and go. The other friends are only there when they need you. After they get what they want they will just forget you. And don't mind you at all. Not all friends are true to you. Not all friends can stay for long. That's why if you found a friend who can stay  for good times and bad times. Kept it and cherish the moments. Every person on the earth will come and go.

I can't explain what  I'm doing things That is suppose to don't do. It's suck on my mind that keeps me in control  not glad not overwhelm not denim on what I'm doing It's not my passion I want something that relate to me relate on what I want. I want to enjoy to the  fullest to be safe not be shaken not disturb and frustrated. Be mature to decide on my own. I'm not sure what would it be If I am not enjoying what I am doing. I feel that I'm dying to the wounds on the situation I encountering make my complete and no worries in the time of trouble, concerns, and  disaster to the specific task and to the particular peculiar. Mi amor res cen te mo res curicor dor. Amores decentivas por qué sen ti vesa. In the event that I can handle it nicely I will come and go directly meet you. I can further undo my rights and transits with each   and every one of disaster and justify of the method and motion like a...

Habang tumatagal madami nababago madami pagsubok na nakakaharapin madami problema kailangan solusyunan. Minsan ang hirap tanggapin kapag nakapag bitaw na ng salita sa kapwa mo. Hindi mo na kasi mababawi yun kahit ano  paliwanag mo. Mahirap pala magdesisyon, yung plano ng isang  magpartner lalo na kung magkaiba kayo pananaw. Lalo na walang gusto magpatalo. Masakit tanggapin kapag ayaw mo marinig mula sa partner mo ang hindi maganda salita. Kasi alam mo sa sarili mo hindi. Mahal mo partner mo pero minsan gusto mo ng panahon para makapag isip kung tama pa ba gagawin mo desisyon na makasama siya habang buhay, kung kaya mo tanggapin ang pamilya niya. Tao ka lang napapagod ka din. Hindi mo alam minsan kung kaya mo pa ba? Napapagod ka na parang hindi kana makahinga dahil nauubos kana pakiramdam mo nauubos na lakas at pasensya mo. Hindi ko ito gusto maramdaman pero nauubos din ako, Naiinis ka na kung b...

I hate to say this but I am disappointed because there are certain things that I hate. I hate that you waste my effort I hate that you pretend that everything is alright but deep inside it is not alright. I don't know why you're numb. You don't feel what I feel Why you still laughing as if nothing happened, nothing has changed. I don't know why I feel this, that I am really mad at you. Maybe because you've changed or maybe because you are high in pride. And it's not easy for me to accept it. Can't concentrate well when your far from me. Because you have a big impact to my life. I hope you see that. All you have to do is to say sorry. I'm waiting for you to do that. I'm willing to forgive you.

In every area of our life There are changes Many circumstances that happens on our lives When you change, you need to change everything We need to change and accept each other for the better.

Sometimes I don't know the feeling of what would I'll react to the situation and circumstances of day and time. Sometimes it really hurt my emotions getting high  every time you have mood swing. I don't know why all man Couldn't feel about our feelings. I don't know if that is common to a man that the reaction is late. Sometimes I accept his attitude even though is painful and hurt me too much.

I can say you seem to make me smile You are like the angel The sky down and came on perfect timing That's how can I say You are our lucky to be with us.

You inspire me Every Time you are besides me. You came to my life unexpectedly I don't know why I'm feeling this you have a big impact in my life.

Nang sinabi ko sayo gusto kita Totoo yun nang sinabi ko sayo Mahal kita totoo din yun Minsan lang ako magmahal hindi hadlang kung mahal at gusto  din ako o hindi. Hindi naman lahat naging masaya kapag tayo nagmamahal karamihan sa atin tayo lang nagmamahal  kahit hindi tayo mahal. Handa tayo sumugal sa pagmamahal na yun. Handa tayo magsakripisyo para magparamdam ang  pagmamahal natin. Kahit mahirap kinakaya pa din Kasi nagmamahal tayo. Gusto kita yun lang masasabi ko. Nasa sayo kung susuklian natin o hindi. Gusto natin ipaalam na kaya natin magmahal  kahit hindi tayo mahal. 

Napapasaya mo bawat araw ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito? Nadarama sayo Gulo na ako sa mga nangyayari at sitwasyon. Bakit ka nagparamdam? Bakit ka kasi nagkagusto? Hindi ko tuloy alam kung ano gagawin. Magulo kasi pa buhay ko Hindi pa ko handa sa biglaan pagbabago. Nagkakagusto na ako sayo Hindi ko alam kung tama ba ito o mali? Mahirap ako mahalin Magulo ang sitwasyon. Hindi alam kung hanggang saan ito  kung magtatagal ba ito nadarama.

Letting you go and living without you  will be very hard, Not so easy to accept It's hard not to talk to you. It's hard to be unkind to you. I don't know why? Maybe because you are special to me. You are important to me  You affect my  life so much. That's why I don't know How do I unlove you? I don't know how helpless that I feel without you what am I supposed to do? Silence speaks today but you don't do so. I don't know how it goes without you and there's nothing I can do. So tell me How Do I Unlove you?